GET IT OUT:
I failed and resisted to write on this (well 2 weeks ago’s) devotional. Sex – what a topic. The biggest sin to most Christians. Be honest? My honesty is that in general I hate sex. I do not get the pleasure that other people get from it. After being raped twice, that pleasure feeling turns into pain. But at the same time I am sexually active. Do I enjoy it the idea of wanting it from to time? No, but do I feel like I should be guilted into and unworthy Christian because of it? absolutely not. I hate feeling shameful that I have sex, or that I have had sex, or that I was raped, twice. I hate feeling ashamed especially being raped. People always make is seem like I should have found a way to control the situation. Ugh. In 2 days it will be a one year anniversary for my second, most traumatizing rape, life experience and sex is always the topic amongst people in my life. I am always afraid of not putting out for a guy that I am interested in and they talk shit about me to others that causes people not to talk to me. Which makes me self conscious about the whole sex topic in general.
1 Corinthians 10:12-14: “(12) So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! (13) No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. (14) Therefore, my dear friends, flee from idolatry.”
Psalm 51:10: “Create me in a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”
Romans 3:23: “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,”
THE BIG IDEA: VULNERABILITY = FREEDOM