Lent

Lent starts today, indeed it does. I always participated in it since my mom told me to as a child. But although in college, it was much harder to do and I switched it from giving up something to taking in something positive. For me, that’s what worked for me at the time.  Now. I…

Beloved – Week 6: About That Purity Thing…

GET IT OUT: I failed and resisted to write on this (well 2 weeks ago’s) devotional. Sex – what a topic. The biggest sin to most Christians. Be honest? My honesty is that in general I hate sex. I do not get the pleasure that other people get from it. After being raped twice, that…

Beloved eVotional – Week 5: Not Today, Satan

GET IT OUT: What voices are you listening to? Are you feeling inadequate? Comparing yourself to other women? Other relationships? What is feeding or fueling the lies you’re believing? Write down every source, every experience, and every thing that fuels those feelings. I’ve been listening to the voices in my head. The voices that were…

Clean Sweep

Yesterday I learned a couple of things.

(1) If you move across the country and start seeing someone who has a mutual friend with your manipulative ex, that small world is never a positive thing.

Rape is real. 

It’s official. I survived two years. I am still surviving. I’ve accepted the pain and hurt you had put me through. Whether if you still know or not.  I was having a good day, until my calendar, and time hop reminded me. Reminded me the actions of words I said to social media to avoid…

Beloved eVotional Week 3 -Distance Makes the Heart Grow

My current feeling of distance is one that I should be ashamed of saying. One that all the close people in my life from college and my family members would threaten to shun me for. One that my best friend would try to slap some sense into me for. One that I feel completely, and currently empty without.

Stop Doubting Me

Lately, a lot of people in my life have been questioning if it is really worth me going back to school in the fall, like as if I don’t have what it takes.

An Open Letter to About My First Rape

I always feel wrong for telling my story because society tells me I did everything wrong. That I asked for it. That it was my fault. But how is it my fault when I say no? How is it my fault when I can’t fully consent? And how is it my fault when they forced me? It’s not.

F*ck Feelings: Chapter 2 – F*ck Self-Esteem

Back at it again with the white vanssss. Just kidding, just another example and way to attack what is really bothering you in chapter 2 – self-esteem in the F*ck Feelings by Michael I. Bennett, MD and Sarah Bennett.

How I’m Saving My Money in 2017

If you know me, I may be the queen of being unable to save money. Like I call it a good week if I’m not in the negatives – that’s how bad I am at saving money. It’s low key depressing.